Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Describe Your Most Memorable Experience this Semester

My math teacher Sonjay was pretty cool. He made teaching fun because he has a sense of humor. He takes his job seriously and that is respectable. He travels all over the world and has a good perspective on life. He made the material to be learned easy to understand. I'm glad I got the oppertunity to meet him.

How would you like to be remembered?

I would like to be remembered as a good mother someone who raised up good children, helped people in need, was a good friend, there when needed, listened without judging, main priority was church, and did a lot in her community.

I would like to travel the world and help people in need. To be selfless not worry about money and possessions.

"Superstitions"

One superstition I used to believe was that if you whistled at night it would bring evil spirits, so I would never whistle at night for a long time. Another one is if you see a white owl that means someone was dead or going to die. The first superstition I heard from my mom, and she heard it from her mom which probably was told to her by an older brother or someone trying to scare her, I don't know. The second superstition was supposed to be what some natives believe, and I believed it too for a while because the night my cousin died my brother said he had seen a white owl that night. I know now that those were exactly what they were "SUPERSTITIONS'.

Dream Vacation

I would love to visit the Holy Lands. I would like to see the places where Jesus walked. To see the places would help me put a picture to the stories I know are true. Maybe not now but when my kids are grown, so they can share the experience with me.

There are a lot of interesting and beautiful places in the world it would be hard to choose just one, so I hope to travel some before I get old.

"The War Within"

I started drinking when I was about thirteen. I would drink and smoke weed and cigarettes when ever I could. I was placed on probation for stealing and been in and out of Juvenile Hall all the way up till the age of eighteen.

I remember looking around at all my family drinking and partying thinking, there is no way out, this is all my life is ever going to be. It wasn't until I was twenty-one when I finally got clean. I wanted to do good and be sober but their was always that little reservation in the back of my head saying "One day I'll use again."

The realization hit me one day when I was walking home from an A.A. meeting, that I was never going to drink or use drugs again;This time it was real . I remember feeling sad like my heart was broken;Like I was loosing a good thing. I walked home slow that day kinda depressed. When I think about ending that relationship I can't believe that I was actually sad about saying goodbye to something that only brought me trouble.

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

SUMMER PLANS

This summer I plan to take the next english class Lead 219. I hope I will be able to pass that course because I have a lot of english I have to learn before I can start my pre-requisites for nursing. After summer school I will sleep in and enjoy the rest of summer with my kids. My son wants to play soccer;therefore, I will have to put aside some money for that. I don't know what we will be doing for the fourth of July, but I'm sure it will be spent with family and having fun.
Each year for about five years now my kids' grandma puts on an event in Oroville that lasts two days. The first day is the giveaway she buys clothes, shoes, school supplies, and food. The block is blocked off in front of her house for people to come and get what they need. A stage is rented for all the christian singers and preachers to come and bring the word to whoever is there. While the giveaway is going on, she also has a Bar-B-Q. This year I think I will actually get to set and listen to the word since by daughter is old enough to go and play with her cousins.
The second day is the "Praise in the Park" at "Martin Luther King Park" in South Side Oroville; similarly, there is more preaching and singing. While the Word is getting preached, and the music is playing under the anointing of God, the kids are busy bouncing in the bounce house; playing in the park; or getting there face painted. It is pretty awesome to witness and be apart of something that has true purpose and is also fun.

Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. Colossians 3:16,17

A DIFFICULT DECISION

It had been a while since I had gone out to party. I was eighteen, and I just had my son. The electricity was out at my house, so my mom took my baby over to her boy friends house to stay with her for the night. My cousins were all going to a friends house to drink; undoubtedly, I went with them, for I didn't want to stay home alone. I thought I could drink like I used to ; however, I blanked out and during this time I ended up with a D.U.I, Evading, and Carjacking. After a week in jail, my grandmother bailed me out. A year later after court dates and being on the run a warrant was issued for my arrest, and the bail bonds-men were looking for me. I was staying with my cousin at the time because I had no income, and my mom had lost her job, so we no longer had a house. I remember my cousin telling me that my grandma was going to get into trouble if I didn't turn myself in; therefore, I was faced with the difficult decision of possibly going to prison and leaving my son.
I see now through this difficult time in my life God was beginning a change in me. Throughout my life I would never turn myself in but for some reason I had an unexplainable peace; as a result, that day I kissed my son goodbye and went to the jail to do my time. Although I was incarcerated for a time, I am thankful that through the trials and hardships God has used them to bring me closer to him, and that I would be saved.

Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character, and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. Romans 5:3-5